Hey everyone,
don’t worry, I will upload a new Mara’s Birthday Nail art Month post later on, but right now I feel like I want to get some things off my chest.
Today I am feeling pretty down.
Since a while I feel like I could improve my Blog and especially the pictures. I am not very happy with them, especially when I photograph light colors or the manicure from yesterday.
I want to study my new camera and I want to study about blogging because I really want to learn more and improve my Blog to give you guys a better quality. On the other hand I feel so frustrated because I don’t have the time to do so. I wake up in the morning, get ready for work, work until 6 or longer, go home, buy essentials like food and make dinner. By the time all that stuff is done it is usually 8 or 9pm and on the weekend we have a lot of things to do in our new apartment since we recently moved.
I love posting everyday, like I said I feel like I don’t have enough time to also study and improve which makes me sad, because I love blogging. I started this Blog because I love nail polish and nails designs and because I want to share that with you guys, but right now I feel ….. I don’t know ….. like it’s not good enough?
Yeah, I guess that’s how I feel right now ….
I am a perfectionist, so I really struggle when things don’t work the way I want them to. I feel like that about my pictures for example.
I spend hours building this mini photo studio and bought a new camera to get better pictures, but it seems I can’t figure out how to fix the things I don’t like about them.
Also I want to be better organized and I would love to name all the pictures I take so it is easier for people to find my pictures and posts on search engines like Google, but just don’t have the time to re-organize everything. There are so many things I want to do. But somehow it paralyzes me because I don’t know where to start and how to find the time to do it.
I wish I could take two weeks of from work to do so, but I have no vacation days left anymore.
All these things have been circling my mind lately and it’s dragging me down. I don’t know what to do…..
To end this post with some positive things, I want to write down a few things I am happy about.
Remember, no matter how down you are, always remember the good things in life.
- I am thankful for this lovely new apartment we moved to. We like it here and we are happy. We are thankful for the roof over our heads and the shelter on rainy or cold days.
- I am thankful for the man on my side, who always listens to me and who tries to support me and make me laugh whenever I am down. He helps me to focus on the good things in life.
- I am thankful for this Blog and each and everyone of you who read it, no matter if daily or from time to time. You might not know this, but I really do appreciate every like, comment and follower. This is what makes my day a bit brighter.
Also I am getting to know a lot of new people who share the same interests as me. I love to communicate with you and exchange experiences.
Thank you
Mara
☆『マラ』☆
all the small stuff and things 